Saturday, September 13, 2008

I am Psycho and so can You

It is said that every seven years your body chemistry changes. Even if we avoid this theory, we still cannot escape it. You are chemical, physical, biological, and mechanical. You are not made of non-existing elements, even in all world religions, the belief is that man is made from dirt, and thusly shall return to dirt. There is nothing in you that’s out of this world; your spirit is energy, your consciousness as you know it is simply a brain pulse. You ask what death is…it is the never-consciousness; suffice to say that when you’re asleep and NOT dreaming, you are actually closer to death than a car crash.

Now let’s skip past that rhetoric, what is really going on here…let’s talk about you, as you know yourself.
You are not who you were seven years ago, your body chemicals have shifted, your personality has changed, your judgment has altered, and your character is different.

Let me preface this by asking you a few questions; do you talk to yourself? Have you ever looked at yourself long enough in the mirror where it actually felt strang?
You do talk to yourself, and not just out loud (like when you’re pissed off), you hear your inner-self talk just as you are listening to yourself read this script. As a matter fact, regardless of whether you know who wrote this, you’re still reading to yourself these words as if another “you” is speaking.

You’re not psychotic or crazy, you’re not delusional; as a matter of fact you are that much closer to knowing whom you truly aren’t, and you are one step nearer to seeing life as clear as it should be.
In physics, psychology, perception, and neurology, you will learn that NOTHING you know is actually real; reality is a generated computation of the brain. That is a fact, not a theory.

Sensation and perception are mere bodily products of a manufactured process. There is a question: “If a tree falls in the woods and no one is there to hear it, would it make a sound?” Despite what you may or may not think, the answer is “no”. There is no such thing as sound, there is however such a thing as vibration. And until the vibration goes through your eardrum where dendrites work to move the liquid in your inner ear, it is not sound yet. Feeling surfaces, seeing colors, tasting food, those are all a virtual reality of your own creation. Nothing is “real” as you know it, so how do you know that you are. The truth is you don’t, and until you cross into the un-being which we call ‘postmortem’, you never will.

So let’s move back to who you are, and not what you are. It’s not enough to suggest that you’re not the same person you were 7 years ago; you’re not the same person 7 hours ago, you’re not the same person 7 minutes ago, and after you are finished reading this outline, you won’t be who you are now.
I didn’t change you, the power of my words didn’t change you, and no, “time” didn’t change you; YOU changed you; your body is morphing in a constant pattern.

Let’s recognize that you are nothing more than existing elements, to the very fucking core. You have Neutrons, you have Protons, and you have Electrons. Oh, and mentally, it’s nothing new that your emotions are also chemicals. The very last orgasm you had was nothing more than a surge of dopamine in your frontal cortex erupting after it were being built up…and that is why you don’t feel as good after your climax; simple chemicals…just purely simple chemicals.

Most of this talk remains in the physical realm, so let’s move on to conscious realms. You are not who you were in the past on any level other than the remnants of certain memories and finite characteristics. Think back, think back to whom you were 10 years ago, let’s think of your childhood; is that person really you, or do you look back at a person that you’re “familiar” with? Go find a picture of yourself, even if it is a recent one, even if it is as recent as yesterday with friends, or an hour ago on your webcam; at that moment, the person who you were is gone. Not only mentally, but physically.

Physics is time and space, if we were to see what time really looks like, if you were to travel back in time you would see frames of yourself…these frames are STILL there, they have not and will not ever move or disappear. And mentally, you have changed from that time frame….how often must you talk to yourself and think to yourself until you finally realize that there IS another you, and that there always will be OTHER you’s.

If you take these ideas, and apply them to everything and everyone you know, you will realize what clarity truly is. The more you think about reality, the less you understand it. And the more you understand, the less sense reality makes…until you learn to think differently, literally out of the box, the box that you call “you”.
You are meant to be more than who you believe you are, greater than what you think you are…you are not a person who is going through a ‘lifetime’, you are a people divided into realms of a ‘life-time.’

It’s not that we change over time, it’s that time IS us changing. Look back and wonder if you ever miss your past…do you really miss the environment around you, or do you actually miss ‘yourself’ in that environment? Because if you were to go back as the person you are right now, you will not have the same experience…because the person whom lived that occurrence is not you.

The ultimate revelation is that you miss yourself, your different past self. Sadly, nothing you ever do can change who you are or bring that person back. Your previous-self is mechanically a part of the past as physics suggests. And you’re new current self is moving forward.

If you don’t like who you have become, or if you do prefer who you are now, be ready to say your goodbyes because as we speak that person is departing…you can not stop it, nothing can. So grasp your current being, and savor the parting moments. Be ready for change, accept what you may or may not become, and as ludicrous as it may sound, or as against reality as it may seem: you are not you.

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