I am Psycho and so can You

It is said that every seven years your body chemistry changes. Even if we avoid this theory, we still cannot escape it. You are chemical, physical, biological, and mechanical. You are not made of non-existing elements, even in all world religions, the belief is that man is made from dirt, and thusly shall return to dirt. There is nothing in you that’s out of this world; your spirit is energy, your consciousness as you know it is simply a brain pulse. You ask what death is…it is the never-consciousness; suffice to say that when you’re asleep and NOT dreaming, you are actually closer to death than a car crash.

Now let’s skip past that rhetoric, what is really going on here…let’s talk about you, as you know yourself.
You are not who you were seven years ago, your body chemicals have shifted, your personality has changed, your judgment has altered, and your character is different.

Let me preface this by asking you a few questions; do you talk to yourself? Have you ever looked at yourself long enough in the mirror where it actually felt strang?
You do talk to yourself, and not just out loud (like when you’re pissed off), you hear your inner-self talk just as you are listening to yourself read this script. As a matter fact, regardless of whether you know who wrote this, you’re still reading to yourself these words as if another “you” is speaking.

You’re not psychotic or crazy, you’re not delusional; as a matter of fact you are that much closer to knowing whom you truly aren’t, and you are one step nearer to seeing life as clear as it should be.
In physics, psychology, perception, and neurology, you will learn that NOTHING you know is actually real; reality is a generated computation of the brain. That is a fact, not a theory.

Sensation and perception are mere bodily products of a manufactured process. There is a question: “If a tree falls in the woods and no one is there to hear it, would it make a sound?” Despite what you may or may not think, the answer is “no”. There is no such thing as sound, there is however such a thing as vibration. And until the vibration goes through your eardrum where dendrites work to move the liquid in your inner ear, it is not sound yet. Feeling surfaces, seeing colors, tasting food, those are all a virtual reality of your own creation. Nothing is “real” as you know it, so how do you know that you are. The truth is you don’t, and until you cross into the un-being which we call ‘postmortem’, you never will.

So let’s move back to who you are, and not what you are. It’s not enough to suggest that you’re not the same person you were 7 years ago; you’re not the same person 7 hours ago, you’re not the same person 7 minutes ago, and after you are finished reading this outline, you won’t be who you are now.
I didn’t change you, the power of my words didn’t change you, and no, “time” didn’t change you; YOU changed you; your body is morphing in a constant pattern.

Let’s recognize that you are nothing more than existing elements, to the very fucking core. You have Neutrons, you have Protons, and you have Electrons. Oh, and mentally, it’s nothing new that your emotions are also chemicals. The very last orgasm you had was nothing more than a surge of dopamine in your frontal cortex erupting after it were being built up…and that is why you don’t feel as good after your climax; simple chemicals…just purely simple chemicals.

Most of this talk remains in the physical realm, so let’s move on to conscious realms. You are not who you were in the past on any level other than the remnants of certain memories and finite characteristics. Think back, think back to whom you were 10 years ago, let’s think of your childhood; is that person really you, or do you look back at a person that you’re “familiar” with? Go find a picture of yourself, even if it is a recent one, even if it is as recent as yesterday with friends, or an hour ago on your webcam; at that moment, the person who you were is gone. Not only mentally, but physically.

Physics is time and space, if we were to see what time really looks like, if you were to travel back in time you would see frames of yourself…these frames are STILL there, they have not and will not ever move or disappear. And mentally, you have changed from that time frame….how often must you talk to yourself and think to yourself until you finally realize that there IS another you, and that there always will be OTHER you’s.

If you take these ideas, and apply them to everything and everyone you know, you will realize what clarity truly is. The more you think about reality, the less you understand it. And the more you understand, the less sense reality makes…until you learn to think differently, literally out of the box, the box that you call “you”.
You are meant to be more than who you believe you are, greater than what you think you are…you are not a person who is going through a ‘lifetime’, you are a people divided into realms of a ‘life-time.’

It’s not that we change over time, it’s that time IS us changing. Look back and wonder if you ever miss your past…do you really miss the environment around you, or do you actually miss ‘yourself’ in that environment? Because if you were to go back as the person you are right now, you will not have the same experience…because the person whom lived that occurrence is not you.

The ultimate revelation is that you miss yourself, your different past self. Sadly, nothing you ever do can change who you are or bring that person back. Your previous-self is mechanically a part of the past as physics suggests. And you’re new current self is moving forward.

If you don’t like who you have become, or if you do prefer who you are now, be ready to say your goodbyes because as we speak that person is departing…you can not stop it, nothing can. So grasp your current being, and savor the parting moments. Be ready for change, accept what you may or may not become, and as ludicrous as it may sound, or as against reality as it may seem: you are not you.

Time is the End

So what about time then? An infinite measurement…a vast expanding organism; life.
Physics and quantum theories aside, so what then? Through the rising count of numbers we document where we stand in time; what day, what year, what hour. What about our biological clocks then? What is that you feel, when you consider the time of day and your state of mind makes an acknowledgement? You connect a number with that moment of being, you almost feel the time of day, mentally.
So what about the end then? What about the beginning? We read books, hypothesize, wondering about the beginning. Men of science tell us about an ever so expanding universe that will ultimately collapse in on its self. But what reality do we truly know? Where does one's consciousness stand in absorbing the relevance of time? We age continuously, every moment passing by is gone, lost and never to return. These few minutes that have taken you to read this manuscript, are part of a mass movement, subtracting what life you have left. As much as it is a measurement, it is a physical deduction from what you are, and who you are.

This brings us to a next realization…every moment spent in life is a moment of alteration; alteration to your knowledge, your sense of being, and your life…physically and mentally. In reflecting on this, where do we derive our life span from? If time is subtracting life, at what point, and in what way was this life summed? If life starts at conception, how then, can an accumulation of an 8-month process produce an organism that requires and average of 60 years to deduce? How are we to understand the physics of life? Let us analyze an observed event: death. Our minds, though they may accept death as an eminent occurrence, they certainly do not comprehend it. What is the feeling of nonexistence? What is it, to be undone? To NOT be part of life? Is it the feeling of shut-eye, a sealed envelope, absolute darkness? The motion of walking through life, not thinking, not pausing, not stopping, at the thought of our end…we have trouble sleeping when we feel uncertain or uneasy about critical future events, such as hardships, illness, life threatening situations…they say stress can give man enough burden to alter his physical being. So how then, do we carry on with our life when we acknowledge that at every point, we are in the beginning of our end. Examine your current being, at this very moment, count a few seconds, the time that has just passed, the seconds that you would have witnessed on a clock, THESE are parts of your march into certain death. You WILL cease to exist, and with every moment passing by, your lifeline is losing substance. So what about death then? I have no answer, I never had an answer…many people believe in afterlife, a trick on their own being…clergymen tell us to expect divine destinations, but the true analysis is merely subjective. What beliefs will you accept, what will your brain convince you of? Are you blindly accepting a future of sort because you cannot comprehend your end?
Time is the end; it is death, injected into you in the form of accumulated age. We live daily and die daily, simultaneously.

Life Theory

There are those who are skeptical about Science, them that believe there is "more to life" than what is explained through science. People often perceive in ways that limit their understanding of Life's mechanics. For all my Loyal Minions that thirst for "My Theories", raise your glasses;


I have heard that the existing "spiritual energy", does not justify my belief (Life is Mathematics.) I would like to take this opportunity to point out that Mathematics is not physical. It is merely a vessel for physical nature.

Mathematics is not tangible, you can not see Math, you may only compute it. Mathematics is existence, it is not a man made science; The equations already exist, for example 1+1 can not equal 3. Therefor Math already exists, we simply try to comprehend it.

Everything is Present. For example, Medicine; All the cures already exist, we merely figured out some of them, and are still trying to compose the rest. Notice the saying "we found a cure" as apposed to "we have created a cure."

Engineers sometimes announce "we have created_______." I disagree; you have not created, all things already exist, you only assembled.

Any subject you even think of, already exists...if your mind is able to visualize it, then it is real. However, it is not available to you. Your brain uses energy and neurons to convey a visualization, therefore it exists, because it subsists in your mind. You are unable to think of anything that is unreal, because your mind can only create such imagination through REAL knowledge, that you already possess.


It is the same reason that past people would not believe in an aircraft; at that time, they simply did not understand the physics.

Man has created nothing...man has just assembled. For example, music; the sounds and melodies already exist, they are physical, and available, man simply combined them.

Life is a contained invironment with trillions of possible blends, and it's up to us to rearrange them.


The internet, Electricity, MP3s, Binary Codes, Sign Language, Food, Medicine, Clocks, Musical Instruments...etc These are all combinations of possibilites.

Psychics: they don't create energy, they simply figure out how to channel it.

Is it possible that life can be infinite? What if all the combinations are generated? Every single possibility is met, everything is created after trillions of years...is that the of end Life? Or the start? Is it possible that there is no end to the string of combinations? Perhaps it is because the joint of existent objects produces new ones, Life is negated as an infinite structure of elements.

"They proclaim Man-Made. I say: Fuck You" -Fadi Malkosh




(Dedicated to Dina Baslan, for giving me an inspiring challenge)

Black Energy & Brain Waves

I would first like to start out by stating a scientific regulation... *The Law of Conservation of Energy: energy cannot be created or destroyed; it can only be changed from one form to another. That being said, I would like to point out that when the brain is in use, it is operating on energy. It is channeling energy in the form of thought, therefore, the mind transforms such energy from thought, onto whatever action is inscribed. For example, when you illustrate a portrait in your head, you are consuming and transforming energy from a state of thoughtfulness into an image. Conversely, when you write a story, a song, a poem, or even a statement, you are transforming energy from your brain's left hemisphere into words and expressions. So what about all the text you have typed, every word you uttered, every picture you've painted, and every thought you have thought to yourself? Where is that energy? Is it collectively consolidated in the vast space of this universe? Is it transferred to the person whom reads it? What about all the online documents, all the journal and blog entries, are they frozen in cyberspace if they are not read? Is the energy merely in a paused state, until someone reads the writing? Energy is transferred through a subconscious psyche, can our unexpressed emotions, our thoughts, our out loud thinking, can all that be transferred telekinetically? Perhaps thoughts can be transferred, just like heat. We are constantly analyzing and interpreting the actions of homicidal serial killers and those whom we label as "mentally disturbed." Can we attribute their dark and twisted mentality to negative energy; perhaps a cry of a victim, an outlandish thought of a morbid poem, perhaps it is THAT energy that is absorbed and is entrapped in their mind, that causes their reactions. Perhaps that person is psychologically predisposed to absorb such harmful vigor. Can we then blame them? Are those murderers perpetrators, or simply victims? Perhaps they are scapegoats. Perhaps they are bearing all the negative energy to save us from such horrific endeavors…maybe they are under-appreciated, maybe it is because they bear such pressure and weight of said morbid emotions, their physical mind snaps, transferring the black energy into violent aggression. "God keeps evil men in his care, so as to act as instruments of his vengeance" Every person releases and absorbs energy in millions of different ways, and thoughts are merely a shape of said forms. Given the history of mankind, violence and destruction has been unleashed in a continuous rapid flow. If the horrific events of our past history have been feeding the mind of certain people through the channel of energy, how can we blame those inhabitants? How can we cure them? How can we control this negative energy, how can we transfer it from a negative form into a positive one? Do we possess the ability to carry out such integration? If one sits and thinks of positive thoughts, can his concentration release those positive thoughts into the parallel universe? If you write a dark sonnet, and no one reads it, does it still unleash an destructive force? Or does it simply wallow on that piece of paper it is written on? If you burn it, what happens then? If you read a grim article, does that negative energy transfer to you in the form of a chemical emotion known as sadness? Perhaps we should be careful of what we read. The human body and mind work involuntarily in certain aspects. Just as your body can distinguish that alcohol is a poison, perhaps your mind can differentiate between positive and negative energy. That being said, when our immune system is weakened, when we are inhibited because of drugs or alcohol, is our mind also in a drop guard mode, does it facilitate for negative energy to welcome itself in our subconscious?? I believe Life is a collective universal consciousness, it is our constant kinetic vibe that keeps this world alive. Thank you. Regards, Fadi Malkosh